Seasons of Life

Seasons We are 7 years into this new season of transition. The thing that the Lord was doing that I didn’t like and was offended, has turned into a large place of kingdom opportunity and beautiful story of the Lord’s purpose and plan. What I once hated has turned into a great love and expectation for what is ahead. My pea brain carnal mind is so limited and unable to comprehend to eternal purpose and plan of the Lord Jesus. Endeavoring to grow in Him, deeper intimacy and fellowship with the Father. Learning to hear His voice above all others. Surrendering ownership of my life to allow Christ in me to manifest!

God's will is this?

Job, why did you loose almost everything, was God angry with you, did you utterly mismanage your stuff, you must have done something wrong or was it just God's will

Joseph, in prison, you must have been a bad misguided individual, your sins have found you out, forgotten, and cast aside, is that the best you could have done in life, or are you exactly where God wants you.

David you were anointed the next King, now your running for your life living in caves. You really messed that all up, look at you and look at the group following you. Failure or perfectly kept in Gods hands?

Daniel, those lions are going to be hungry, all your sacrifice has come to this, are you a joke, or is the joke on the enemy.

Moses you were sparred from death and taken out of the water for what, to tend sheep in the backside of the desert, boy your life could have been so much more, or is there more…

Hope

It's when i get into the Word that hope is the strongest. My time away from it brings doubt and depression.

God's plan

And he humbled thee, and suffered thee to hunger, and fed thee with manna, which thou knewest not, neither did thy fathers know; that he might make thee know that man doth not live by bread only, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of the Lord doth man live. (Deuteronomy 8:3 KJV)

The desire of God to teach me, that it is only by His hand that I live today. He has sustained me, His word has kept me going these years of financial difficulty, lack, want. The process of learning obedience has been and is a slow process because of old stubborn ways. Don't fight Gods plan, but rather embrace it

Wretched man

When I begin to think, wow I'm holy, strong, then out of the blue, I'm in a battle. Battle for purity, righteous thoughts, actions now I'm fighting, casting down thoughts and imaginations. No confidence in the flesh, because at its core it's corrupt. Paul did say this corruptible must but on incorruption. I'm trying with the help of Jesus, to remove every trace of the man that I used to be… I'm not the same, but not content to remain where I am. Jesus has been too good and done too much for me to go back. Oh that I would be a slave to righteousness!!

Continue

**Numbers 11:23 KJV** And the Lord said unto Moses, Is the Lord's hand waxed short? thou shalt see now whether my word shall come to pass unto thee or not.

God ability to provide and work miracles far exceed my understanding of how such things could be. Therefore I must continue to place my trust in Jesus, only He can save me.

**Numbers 14:11 KJV** And the Lord said unto Moses, How long will this people provoke me? and how long will it be ere they believe me, for all the signs which I have shewed among them?

The Lord was angry with the people, because even after they saw the many miracles, they still did not believe. Jesus is still on the Throne and He will continue to bring us through if we look to Him.

Past finding out

I always get into trouble when I place my expectations upon the Lord. I have certain scenarios in my mind, then when it doesn't happen, it puts me in a tail spin. Jesus is the anchor or my soul, period. The word anchor means the space the arm creates in the elbow when I raise my hand. I need to just join arms with Jesus and go wherever He leads me. I can't get caught up in all the what, how and why of it all because it just past finding out!